An image of him sinking below the deep, black surface of the sea crawled into my head, and I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to get rid of it.
He would’ve been gone forever.
“Fucking kill me,” he said, his voice even and suddenly calm.
“No.”
“Kill me. You’re going to have to.”
I shook my head.
He grabbed me by the collar, screaming, “Do it!”
And I grabbed his neck in my hands, ramming him into the wall of the pool house. “I can’t!”
He grunted, breathing hard, and I dropped my forehead to his, unable to swallow the fucking needles in my throat.
“Fuck, I can’t,” I whispered. “Please, stop. Please.”
“I can’t,” he mouthed, and tears streamed down his face. “I can’t.”
A tear streamed down his face, but he wiped it away, growling. “Do it,” he bit out. “Snap my neck, rip out my throat, or strangle me, you sick fuck! Just do it!”
He punched me across the jaw, pain shot through my head, and I
clenched my fists so tight my nails dug into my palms.
“Will…” I breathed out, unable to catch my breath. “Don’t.”
“I’ll never stop.” He shook his head, coming in again. “Never.”
He pushed me. “Kill me.”
Stop.
His hands slammed into me again. “I’m going to take her away from you, so kill me.”
You can’t have her. I’ll…
“Kill me, so I’m out of your way!” he bellowed. “If you did it right last time I’d be at the bottom of the fucking ocean, so finish the job, and then you can have her!”
Stop it
“Don’t,” I choked out.
The walls were closing in. I couldn’t breathe.
But he pushed me again, and I winced, my chest now aching. “And she’ll take me away from you, and then you’ll be all alone. Like you always
should’ve been.”
My stomach churned, and I seethed, and then he hit me, fire spreading
across my cheek and sending my head jerking to one side.
“You’re gonna deal with me!” he yelled and then hit me again, sending
me stumbling. “Kill me. Fucking finish the job and kill me, because I’m fucked, and I hate you, and if you don’t take me out, I’ll take you out,
because it’s fucking over!”
He shoved me again and again, and I was losing it. I shot out my hands to stop him,
“Don’t. Stop.”
Stop it.
“See how hard I make her sweat and ...,”
I glowered at him, my fingers digging into his neck. She wouldn’t want him. And so help her God if she did.
“So do it then,” he urged, finally shoving his palms into my chest and
pushing me back. “Kill me before I can fuck her, because I won’t stop.”
He pushed me again, and I stumbled back, my fingers tightening intofists.
No. Stop, just stop.
“Because I have a passion for self-destruction, and you always knew it, and you always knew we would end badly.” His voice cracked. “This won’t
end any other way.”
Was he right? Did I think our friendship would survive our future?
Be with me. Just be with me. Not against me.
But he shoved at me again. “I’ll take her from you.”
his eyes watering. “My family is done with me. Michael has Rika. Kai has Banks. You were a lie.” He faltered, dropping his gaze. “She was a lie.”
She.
She was next. After I was done with Winter, I’d do it for him.
“I’m not afraid of you,” he said, even though his voice was laced with defeat. “I’m not afraid of anything anymore. If you don’t kill me, I’ll keep
pushing you until you have to. And I will fuck you over any way I can.” He
bared his teeth, growling. “In ways she’s gonna love.”
I slammed him into the wall again, but he still didn’t fight me.
“You wanna watch?” he egged me on. “Come on. She won’t even
know you’re in the room. You can see if she likes it with me. See if she responds to me better than she responded to you.”
“She’s damn-well turning me on now. She felt really good in the pool, and I —”
I kicked the fire pit, and it went tumbling into the pool, extinguishing, and I lunged for him, but he made no move to get away. With one hand on the front of his neck and the other hand on his back, I whipped him around and threw him into the wall of the pool house.
“I almost killed you once” I gritted through my teeth and getting in his
face. “I could do it again.”
“Then do it” he fired back. “Do it, because I got nothin’ to lose, D.Nothing.”
He gasped out the last, desperation suddenly rippling off of him, and it
was familiar, because I felt it, too. I stared at him his eyes searching mine.
“I can’t stop going down this road I’m on” he nearly whispered,
a beast is encaged behind my heart
some days silent, then provoked
angry, roaring & clawing out
like mosquito bites, it leaves a gift
not letting the gashes clot, making them burn
slowly igniting it with a slow burn thrill
before I realize, my insides are
hot, burning & breathing fire
Every criminal was a victim once.
Isliye tujhse main pyaar karoon
ki too ik badal aawara
When you don't feel safe in vicinity of your own mind
And realize that you are not weak, but are fragile
It is more haunting than other days
because you have no one other to blame
you need to stay in an endless loop
just to stay away from, you.
Its a black hole you are trying to escape
always pulling, trying to engulf you in it.
I hated numbers, and today I'm earning because of them. I hated cost accounting and now I'm supposed to design and implement a whole accounting system based on cost accounting.
Bravo!
"Learned anything valuable about lighthouses? Anything that can help us?"
"If I did. I won't tell you."
"Is it because you want to get off this island alone?" he questions lightly though there's a hint of darkness in his tone.
"I don't care what happens to you," I mutter beneath my breath,
I only manage one more step when suddenly a hand is roughly gripping my curls and spinning me back around. A gasp leaves my tongue, and my heart bottoms out when I come face-to-face with two fierce hazel eyes. That dark spot in his right iris is sprouting, turning it nearly black,
He steps into my personal space and bares his teeth, tightening his grip on my hair until my skull is laced with pain.
"Did he touch you again?" He doesn't wait for an answer, turning to glower at the door. "Lo uccido" he spits, deathly calm
"What does that mean?"
"It means I'm going to fucking kill him, Sawyer."
I scoff,why the hell he's acting like he gives a shit,
"Whatever. You don't have much room to talk anyway." He turns that glower to me,
"Come again?" he challenges,
"Well, did you not touch me while actively drowning me? You're going to act like there isn't something wrong with that?"
A dimple begins to appear in his cheek, and I swear to God, if the fucker actually smiles rn, I'm going to kill him.
"you're right, and I'd do it again. I'm the only one allowed to touch you, bella ladra, and I'm the only one who will cause you pain. Capito?"
"I don't want to hear your words."
"Then what do you want to hear?"
"I want to hear what it sounds like when you are breaking and can't scream."
Ecco la mia piccola ladra.
She's walking on the beach now.
She looks tired, sad but I'm not falling for that bullshit again.
It was one of the reasons I had bothered with her in the first place.
She had a sense of humor and a perpetual grin, but nothing about her seemed happy or carefree. Which is exactly why I liked her. My darkness attracted to hers, and it seems I learned the hard way just how dangerous it is.
My coping mechanism is watching my hard-earned money go up in flames
I've never had a man stare at me the way Enzo does. It feels the he's throwing me onto a table, taking a scalpel to my flesh, and slicing me open to see my blackened soul bared for him.
He chuckles, the sound low and deep. Humourless. Like I've just told him that I am not scared of him while he's holding a knife to my jugular.
Even though his smirk it cruel, it does things to my insides anyway , Twists them up like a rag drenched in gasoline before lighting a match to it.
"You're going to ruin me," he reiterates.
"I won't."
I will.
At least not like he thinks.
"You're lying."
I am.
"You won't be the only one that will be ruined, remember?" I settle on, deciding to go with the truth.
I absolutely will destroy him, and later, I'll hate myself for it more than I already do.
"You're going to ruin me, too. But unfortunately for you, that's where ! feel most at home."
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