There some very weird connecton between me falling for someone and my decreased urge to fap.. idk why it happens, but she sure gonna make me win No Nut November challenge
I never get it when someone says they live for themselves. i mean how can that be a purpose of living? I always thought that a purpose might be to give something to the world or have someone with you and live with her/him or maybe to set yourself a goal and live to meet it.. And when you cant do it, you dont have a purpose. That's what i always believed. But then i met some people who suggested me to live for myself. And i tried to do it, but that feels so baseless. Like why would i want to do that? that's sounds like a paradox to me. . idk if thats bcoz of my possibly low self-esteem or something. But that confuses me so much.
Who the fuck is the society when everyone complains about being treating bad by it? a group of aliens or something? . You all need to accept that you yourself is an asshole who can't do shit and finds it easy to blame it on others. Your selfish ass may think that you should be the centre of the universe but in reality nobody gives a shit about you. You'll have to do things for yourself, nobody is liable to you.
Humanity is unstoppable. So are its sins. You may think we have fallen down to the bottom of this abyss, but the truth is that we keep falling even further. I wonder what God thinks of his creation when he looks down at us. Disgusted? Sad? Proud? Funny? or is He just neutral about it? Did He know we are gonna do this to us? Did he really plan all this? That's so confusing. I really want to meet Mr. God one day and ask Him what does all this really mean to Him?
Nobody dies of breakup or heart break. they move on and love again, only to lose it again. love is subjective i think, just an emotion like anyother one. Maybe we don't need it. or maybe we need it alot. atleast more than one i guess. idk, i m confused.
Its been tough but i think I've given myself a purpose. but then there are these days when it all seems so fake, meaningless and worthless. That's how it goes i think. and i have anxiety
