Kept suppressing emotions to point that they turned into a memory loss. Now, there are no memories but still a constant void which keeps reminding me that I've lost something precious but I don't know what I've lost.
The feeling of emptiness which comes after losing something precious, as precious as connection, when you want to go back to the The One and Only but it feels like he won't be accepting your devotion, the truth is you no longer have devotion in you, your empty prayers are no more, your being such filth that it makes you feel like the Forgiver of Forgivers won't forgive you, won't want you, won't allow you to stand in front him to bow.
