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It’s strange growing up knowing you were loved yet never really feeling it. And then later, as an adult you start noticing how hard it is to let that love in how closeness feels unfamiliar even overwhelming .
Love doesn’t feel warm it feels distant, heavy, and at times........ unbearable. When someone tries to love you fully without walls, you instinctively pull away. You keep realizing that the only kind of love you can handle is the one that stays just far enough to feel safe distant, quiet, and a little cold.