Let go of that inconsistent person. The one who doesn't care about you and only wants to stay connected. The one who does nothing, except an occasional phone call just to maintain a connection so when they need something, they can get it. Let go of that horrible inconsistent person. You don't deserve to sit back with a heart wondering why 🙂
The way you struggle with a sin is very attractive to God. Even if you fall, even if you fail, even if you get depressed 'cause you think it isn't really working, believe me you are still being rewarded. Allah values your efforts.The world doesn't struggle, it indulges into the sins. And the fact that you are the one struggling makes you so special😊