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Fadii11
 

I wonder what would our society be like if there was no mention of ,
"Larki ki naak Bari hai."
"Larka boht patla hai."
"Ankhen boht Bari Hain."
"Qad boht chota hai."
"Kaali family hai."
"Boht chipku log Hain."
"Arey bs gari Nahi hai larkay k Pas apni."
"Larki boht modern hai."
"Ghar Nahi hai unka apna. Karae k Ghar/flat mein rehte hain."
"Farigh university se parha hai usne. Achi university se parhta/parhi."
Looks like we didn't learn a single thing from the history and made a whole new garbage ass society where status/looks/money/number of cars is the main concern.

Do you ever experience one of those days where you just feel sad about everything.
کبھی خود پر کبھی حالات پہ رونا آیا 
بات نکلی تو ہر اِک بات پہ رونا آیا 
And as if that wasn't enough you start missing people who you thought were long forgotten.
ہم تو سمجھے تھے کہ ہم بھول گئے ہیں ان کو
کیا ہوا یہ آج کس بات پہ رونا آیا 
And when you start questioning everything and kept wondering 
کس لیے جیتے ہیں ہم کس کے لیے جیتے ہیں 
بارہا ایسے سوالات پہ رونا آیا
But then the realization sets in that it isn't Life or People it's actually You who's been making you feel miserable the whole time.
کون روتا ہے کسی اور کی خاطر اے دوست
سب کو اپنی ہی کسی بات پہ رونا آیا
And now that you figured you got no one but yourself to blame you sigh with the heavy heart.
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Fadii11
 

Relationships are not actually complicated if we ever try to understand it.
We humans makes it really confused and complicated.
With the right person, you don't have to worry about them leaving you because the right person will make you feel home. That person will not be the example of perfectionist but instead that person will show you that all humans are imperfect but still you could be everything for someone.
That person will show you that your scars aren't supposed to hide but they are your strength. They shows how many battles.
you have won or how much pain you can bear.
The right one will make you fall in love with
yourself first.
THE RIGHT ONES NEVER LEAVES :)

Fadii11
 

" Why do people leave ?"
This question was stucked in my heart since a long time. I used to think about every possible reason but i was never able to find the actual answer .
Because the answer goes along with tthat person who left. Humans came into your life without asking ,
& then those humans also leave your life without letting you know.
Those who leave you behind in life never really understands you anymore . They will never know what you have gone through
without them. They will never feel that pain or loneliness of soul. Even if they once came back , they are no more the same for you. If they were yours , they would never leave you in the first place...♥

Fadii11
 

ایسی اُداسی بیٹھی ہے دل پہ ، ہنسنے سے گھبرا رہے ہیں
My heart just relate to it on a level so deep because I know no matter where I am and what I do, my heart will always carry this heavy pain with it which will stop me from being genuinely happy, even if it's for a while only
ہنستا میں روز ہوں
خوش ہوئے زمانہ ہوا.

Fadii11
 

It's okay to cry if you are in pain. Remember tears are prayers too, they travel to Allah when we you can't speak.
جب کہہ نہ پاؤ تو رو لیا کرو آنسو بھی دعا ہی ہوتے ہیں۔

Fadii11
 

“They expect so much from me to the point that I slowly feel the urge to stop trying at all. They expect me to be excellent at everything but I'm not even good at anything. They expect me to be brave and determined but I'm weak and terrified to face my fears. They expect me to be okay all the time but I sometimes get drowned in my own thoughts, too. Nobody was even there to help me out. They expect me to be the best but I am not the best...♥

Fadii11
 

Somewhere between a crowd of people who love me, and somewhere surrounded by loneliness with my demons taunting me. Somewhere between loving you one moment and fighting so hard with you the next moment. Somewhere between being a diehard fan of your dazzling smile and turning my face away from you because you annoyed me;
You always win over everything and I choose you in your best and worst...♥
You got me!

Fadii11
 

Yesterday on my way back from university, I thought about all the classmates I’ve ever had. I wondered where those people are now. Adulting is weird. On somedays I’m excited about the new opportunities that lay before me. Whereas on others, I miss the old school life.
To all the friends and acquaintances I’ve ever had, we might not be in touch. Whenever my eyes land on a similar face all I think about is where all those childhood faces are now? I feel so proud when I get to see some of us growing up & progressing in life. Some have started their own ventures, some are going abroad for further studies, while others have started a new chapter of married life. It’s like we’re all different people now, yet the same.

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Fadii11
 

I call myself a filler. Someone who fills in the blank, a vacant seat, an empty cup, a starving stomach, a negative bank account, a boring show, an unfurnished shelf, the empty side of the bed, the void in somebody's chest. I can be your diary, your answer, your food, your clown, your trophy, your warm blanket, your rebound, your lover. I am used to fill the needs of other people, to answer their calls for help, to provide what they lack, to be exactly who they want me to be. Whenever there is a hollow space in someone's life, I occupy it. This is the only way I know how to matter in someone's life—to be a filler...♥

Fadii11
 

Buy me a rabbab, watches, a packet of lays (yogurt flavour), take me on a short trip, accompany me on hiking, go out with me for a walk on rainy days, a bike ride or a short meetup at night and I am ready to jump off a cliff for you...♥

Fadii11
 

in the silence of the night,
the dog outside my house barks too loudly.
it's strange how his voice gets lost
in the chaos of daytime.
he reminds me of my own heart,
of how often i lose my own voice
in the chaos of people.
it's strange how in the silence of the night,
i hear myself again.
i don't know what he keeps saying all night.
he doesn't know what i keep writing all night.
but, somewhere, the night knows us both.
and, maybe that is what puts us both to sleep when
we both feel too Tired...♥

Fadii11
 

When you lost your physical personality because of worst mental health...♥

Fadii11
 

When some of us get the compliments, we try to change the topic, make a joke about it, or simply put the compliment back on who said it. This is because, there was a phase in our lives when getting attention or this much validation wasn't our thing due to the image of being insufficient (as per society's standards) we had of ourselves. So now when all of a sudden the appreciation kicks in, it's a mixture of 'What?' 'How?' 'Why?' and 'Thanks' at the same time...♥

Fadii11
 

I usually think that what's the 'right' time for a thing to happen that we all talk about? I mean we can't even predict the next few seconds. Maybe I could've passed away while writing this disoragnized little note. Maybe you could've gone through the same while halfway reading it...♥

Fadii11
 

Nowadays, I've seen alot of adults like 23-30 year old people making fun of teenagers for having depression and that hurts me alot. These are the same people who say that we shouldn't jugde anyone and do then they do this. You never know how hard circumstances are for someone and nobody likes to share their personal problems so please, it's my request, be kind...♥

Fadii11
 

میں ایسا کیوں ہوں ؟
I'm a person who lives away from the crowd of the world and maybe rightly or wrong I like to stay away from People's life. I like spending time alone and that's why people think I'm boring.
Sometimes I get angry with myself, why am I like this but it feels good to be alone. I don't understand the colors of the world, the fair parties of the world, I always think of my own words and thoughts
اگر دل اداس ہو تو
دنیا کی رونقیں زہر لگتہ ہیں۔
Why I'm like this?
I'm completely different from what people think I know what people think about me but I don't show myself as I'm and sometimes I'm very sad about my future because I 'm so tired so what will be my future
Do I really have to be like the world...???

Fadii11
 

Living a meaningless life is my biggest fear and I don't want to turn this fear into regret. Every day I wake up with the motivation to do something to be something but the atmosphere all around me turns my motivation and motivational sentences into a single sentence 'Let the time pass it does not matter how it is passing'
Being purposeless is not the problem but being habitual of such a purposeless life is the problem. Your soul is in dire need of changing the cycle. The cycle in which you wake up stare at the ceiling of your room for a couple of seconds dress up nice with an ugly spirit meet and greet, visit your workplace and fellows with a smile while your heart is burning return to home. You are born to do something...♥

Fadii11
 

My teacher used to say that
'دین کے معاملے میں اپنے سے اوپر اور دنیا کے معاملے میں اپنے سے نیچے کے لوگوں کو دیکھو-'
On an initial basis, I just used to repeat this sentence but now I try to follow these words. Living in a life where everyone is busy competing with others, where everyone is busy in a self-made race I realized it's time to turn my mental system into order. Self-made races with self-made rules are poisonous for you and the people around you too. Most of the houses were destroyed just because of these races. Most people lost their peace just because of these races.
Reminder!
Instead of being a part of such a race just look and observe. Observe in such a way that doesn't destroy you or others...♥